Suddenly i have this feeling

The feeling of being left alone

Having to cope with everything all on my own

The feeling of grief 

Of all I missed 

And will never have 

I know it is this I have chosen

Before I came to this world

But sometimes it is hard

I push the feelings away

I want to survive 

I want to be good

But I sometimes fail

I feel let down

Abondonend, left alone

Left alone with all this feelings

Feelings of helplessness 

Like I am blindfolded

I cannot see the road in front of me

So how can I find the way

My way

I need someone there to lead me

To tell me what to do

Sometimes that’s what I need

Sometimes that’s what  I want

Sometimes 

Sometimes I feel lost

All alone